I think the most interesting thing about this 30 days of truth exercise will be not just thinking about the answers to 30 different topics, but sharing those thoughts with others. Online. In front of the world (yes, the world reads my blog). After all, isn’t that what we all really want to know – how other see us? It’s one thing to have a pretty good grasp on what those closest to me think about me, but a whole different perspective to see how other people in general see me.
I am especially surprised to realize how people who may not even know me that well pick up on the fact that I’m not a very touchy-feely person. I guess there’s no real reason why this should be surprising, but I just always thought that was an aspect of my personality that was only apparent to a certain group of people.
People that don’t know me that well might be surprised to learn that I really am a very emotional person. I bawl at weddings, I have emotional breakdowns occasionally and I love watching sappy movies. Yes, believe it or not, I consider myself to be a romantic at heart, and I’m still secretly (or not so secretly) waiting for my prince on a white horse, damnit.
I suppose the reason I don’t like talking about my feelings is because I can’t control them. Once the floodgates are open, there’s no turning back. And who likes to be that vulnerable in front of others? So, since it’s either all or nothing when it comes to my emotions, I choose nothing. And sometimes I wish that I could find that middle ground to express myself and let others know how I feel.
Anyways, enough rambling. Hope you keep reading and I welcome any reactions or feedback. Now, onto day two…